you've got a friend in me! you've got a friend in me!

12.2.09
1:28am


been thinking a lot lately about a few things.. the first of these was recently brought up to me by a friend of mine. he said something very profound; he said "the length of a friendship slowly kills the will to understand each other."

this got me to thinkin. it seems to be pretty true in most cases. i felt as though i have been on both the giving and receiving end in this particular situation.

so profound.

i have so much to work on when it comes to being a friend and to be honest, there are times where i feel like my friendships with people have become complacent and we don't really try to understand each other and question and challenge and encourage each other. i don't want to have surface friendships.

sometimes i'm afraid to share how i'm doing and what i'm feeling or what i've been thinking about because i feel bothersome or i feel as though people aren't really listening. Lord knows i'm guilty of not giving people 100% of my attention when listening. that's kind of why i simply keep to myself or my blog. privacy is good but i need to remember i need to also share with others how i'm doing so they can know how to pray for me and keep me accountable. another thing to add to my list of improving myself :P



i never really paid attention to it before, but it's been there all along. it's so important for us to constantly take a step back, look at we have and PRAISE GOD for it. oftentimes i get so wrapped up in myself that i forget to treasure what i have and WHO i have. God's blessed me with so many different people in my life; some people i've know since i was born and others have come into my life just this semester. new friends are always exciting to me because it's something fresh and someone i've yet to understand and know about. but i need to remember to treasure those God has placed in my life all along.

i think we often forget that we're constantly changing, evolving, adapting to the people around us, the world we live in. we forget that people will change or grow up or be just a little bit different and that we need to move with them. i can't call myself a friend to so-and-so if all i think about is how much i miss how they used to be and how things used to be. because that's not really who they are anymore. what's done is done and i gotta remember that this is the here and now. every day given to us is a gift from God. people are meant to be in a constant state of growth and i gotta remember to treasure people for who they are today and who they can become in the future.

Lord Jesus, please continue to help me love others as You do.


another thing i've been thinking about is matt chandler and his family. it's been SO encouraging and inspiring to see thousands of people rally in prayer support for him and his family. we serve a beautiful God :)

but it got me to thinkin. i heard somewhere that every person is going to suffer a tragedy of some sort in their life at one point or another. a loved one dying or the loss of a job or a broken relationship. i wonder if this is true. the thought scares me. the thought of losing my dad or my mom or angela or my friends.... scares the crap out of me! i can't imagine life without them.. but again, this goes back to my other blog post about how i can't hold on to things too tightly because nothing is forever.. i know i shouldn't be afraid because God has a purpose for everything in my life, but i can't help but be a little scared. like this thing with matt chandler's family.. to be living a full and happy life one day then discover a mass on the frontal lobe of your brain the next.. it's absolutely frightening. the thought of it. man. i'm seriously amazed at how faithful they are to God's will and His plan. they are still praising God and that is a strong testament to other believers. amen!

this is something i have to keep working on. not being afraid of loss. Christ is within me; i have nothing to lose and everything to gain.


there's one more thing that's been on my mind but i don't wanna share publicly so i'll write about it in my secret blog :) hahaha. thank you for reading.. i think i have... five readers now? :) i should do a shout out... those are cool... i always feel cool when i get shout outs :) maybe next blog!! yessssss. sounds like a plan. i'll just list names so your heart can skip a little when you see YOUR name! :O



anyway, whoever yall are - thanks for taking the time out of your day to read about my ramblings :) i pray that you walk with Jesus today and grow in your love and knowledge for Him. talk to Him; dig into His word! i'm totally giving you a thumbs up to encourage you right now :)









i'm sitting in my bed and edwin says hi. he's lying down to the right of me, smiling as always ;) i can hear rain on the window and five times august - better with you is playing on angela's iLuv. i'm wearing purple sweats and my gray cougar athletic training long sleeve shirt. my hair's in a messy ponytail and my toes are cold :)

CAN YOU PICTURE ME?!?!?! :D :D :D i hope you can picture me. i hope that was a descriptive enough description.

i am also hungry. MAN OH MAN am i hungry. i am currently craving wingstop and thin crust pizza. MAN! i don't wanna go to school tomorrow. or technically, today since it's 2am on the dot! i'm getting sleeeeeeeeepy............


this is gonna sound/look kinda weird because i'm posting this during the day but actually writing this at night. but yeah. okey dokey pokey, i need to stop blogging. it's 2 am; i'm getting sleepy and i still gotta have my Jesus time and i don't wanna be all sleepy while talking to Him! tonight is luke 20:20-26! waHoOoOOoooo!


yall have a blessed day :)

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